In my life I have met some men whom I felt an immediate connection of love. So strong these connections are I fall almost instantly in love with them and them with me, from the attraction that acts as gravity. So in the words of Osho, 'what to do'? Well, after following the impulse and being with all but one of these men, I realized upon meeting the most recent man this weekend, that I can honour the love and allow the emotions, the closeness, the connection without having to 'do' anything about it. Not rejecting it or resisting it, simply allowing, acknowledging and respecting the connection is enough; then letting it go. One of the men told me his understanding about two types of love, heavenly love and earthly love. It seems congruent to say these loves are heavenly in feeling and as long as I breath I will continue to grow in understanding the nature of love. Allowing the wisdom of love to guild me and teach me how to anchor soul connected love onto the earth, to experience the mature feminine meeting the mature masculine and joining in conscious union. I believe here in lies my and our potential as humans being and relating.
Most of us, meet and play out our wounds with each other. Our subconscious begging us to see these hurts and release them. We continue to play out the same dramas again and again in our unconscious bid to grow and let go. I'm left wondering if I am free to really live or if I am a slave to the game of growth. To truly be free is to become conscious of self to the extent I can choose in each moment from clarity. Choose each relationship with wisdom and acknowledge the drama being played and to what end. Questioning "Why am I with this person?" "What do I project on this person?" "Who is this person to me?" "Can I take full responsibility for all I experience?" Leaving blame to the way side. "Why have I created this?" I endeavour to be completely honest with myself in the hope the mental understanding will give way to the experiential understanding and vice versa.
One day in the not too distant future I will wake up fully. This is true for all of us, even if that one day is death. I believe my path is a path of love and through love I find myself, healing and hope. I experience connection each day which grows me closer to the presence of consciousness. As I integrate and heal myself clarity grows. Love grows. I grow. I wonder who of you out there are with me on this path? Who of you out there are courageous enough to dive inside and let go of everything? The love of these men and many others stay in my heart and give me the gift of love expansion. They give me the gift of self awareness. Simply by loving and letting go, I grow.
As I embark on the next phase of my journey I am grateful to all of you who have put your hearts out there; who have embraced hurt and heartbreak as well as love, ecstasy, joy and beauty. Thank you for being a part of my journey, it has been an honour to be a part of yours.
Most of us, meet and play out our wounds with each other. Our subconscious begging us to see these hurts and release them. We continue to play out the same dramas again and again in our unconscious bid to grow and let go. I'm left wondering if I am free to really live or if I am a slave to the game of growth. To truly be free is to become conscious of self to the extent I can choose in each moment from clarity. Choose each relationship with wisdom and acknowledge the drama being played and to what end. Questioning "Why am I with this person?" "What do I project on this person?" "Who is this person to me?" "Can I take full responsibility for all I experience?" Leaving blame to the way side. "Why have I created this?" I endeavour to be completely honest with myself in the hope the mental understanding will give way to the experiential understanding and vice versa.
One day in the not too distant future I will wake up fully. This is true for all of us, even if that one day is death. I believe my path is a path of love and through love I find myself, healing and hope. I experience connection each day which grows me closer to the presence of consciousness. As I integrate and heal myself clarity grows. Love grows. I grow. I wonder who of you out there are with me on this path? Who of you out there are courageous enough to dive inside and let go of everything? The love of these men and many others stay in my heart and give me the gift of love expansion. They give me the gift of self awareness. Simply by loving and letting go, I grow.
As I embark on the next phase of my journey I am grateful to all of you who have put your hearts out there; who have embraced hurt and heartbreak as well as love, ecstasy, joy and beauty. Thank you for being a part of my journey, it has been an honour to be a part of yours.
