I did an ET contact meditation last night. I woke up in the night with very strong vibration in my lower heart, very intense. Wasn't sure what was going on, then the energy grew more intense , like what I imagine glowing to feel like, I felt it shoot down my arms into my hands, which went very stiff, then my mouth went very wide and down and a silent roar came out. This happened twice more. Then I had an experience was like I was being scanned by a familiar voice I've known as myself (not my personality, which is a whole other some what confusing topic) to find out what was going on, then I repeated only beings of love, joy and light with intentions of our highest good may enter, the energy subsided the third time I said this and I called arch angle Michael. (This all just happened, there was no thinking about what to do, it just happened) I Closed down my openness and went to sleep repeating only love joy and light. I could feel the fear in my body and soothed it with these words as I fell back asleep. I could feel the other beings in the room and see some of their energetic outlines. I didn't pay too much attention to them, as I wanted to go back to sleep and them to leave.
I'm not sure what I was expecting, though obviously not that. I'm left feeling sore where my sternum is and the surrounding area, like I worked out last night (which I didn't not physically). I also feel drained and a bit shaky. I'm divided to be honest. Part of me doesn't know what to make of this and it's a bit freaked out by it all... another part feels calm and in understanding. This part knows:
The energy felt reptilian, lower vibration earth plane et's trying to make contact. The heart pulses threw the et out as they cannot exist in an unconditional love vibration of the 4d+5d vibration which I fluctuate in and out of. I have channeled my whole life with a being (group of beings) who are one. They are known to be as me, as I have always known them, yet they are not my personality which feels fear and has struggled with these gifts and sensitivities, especially as a young child. We are the holders and keepers of this universe. You are one of our representatives on the earth plane. You are so brave and loving to have chosen to come and embody... and continue to embody more fully. You will continue to grow in love harmony vibration to be able to embody us all. We will embody through you as one, this integration has already begun.
(I started channeling in the above paragraph and have not edited it.)
As I type this tears are streaming out of my eyes. I feel a gentle pulse in my heart... and I have this feeling of needing to share this with some one who understands and won't think I'm crazy. A very talented psychic told me once that I'm a walk in, yet the original soul hasn't left. She tried to "fix" that... yet what happened is it allowed the (not personality me) to embody more fully... and the me that was born in this body is still here. We exist together.
SO the channel is open and more insight is gained by the part of me I experience as my personality. Certain things start to make sense and become clearer.
Any thoughts, insight, feedback, and discourse welcome.
