Dream through My Chakrahs

I cleared all my chakrahs before bed, and had a wonderful dream-like dream through my chakrahs.

It was a beautiful dream experience and very integrating and easy till the last bit.... in my mind, where i was searching for a shower at a large indoor trade show. 

I so desperately wanted a shower and was really upset being smaller than everyone and not able to see where the entrance was... and all the smiling clean people walking around just out of the shower.

I saw how not being able to see or find what I was looking for stirred negative emotions, anger, fear, anxiety, confusion... I would go up higher and could see where the entrance was but when I got back down stairs it was all confusing again. All the directions I was given were wrong, and the asking and receiving incorrect information made it worse. 

Finally in the dream, I let out this growling scream. Everything stopped in the dream, all focus was on me. I declared "I AM taking a shower."  

The people parted and the entrance was visible. Everybody was quite. I walked toward the shower entrance... as I walked I woke up. 

I remember another chakrah, the heart I believe. Where I was sailing on a peaceful ocean. The sun was comfortably in the sky. I was alone in body yet felt fully connected to everybody. I was sailing in a small boat with a sail toward something, yet knew not what. I felt happy and at ease. Then I saw a large rock or small island in the distance and became curious. I sailed over to it with just my mind choosing to go that way. When I arrived my beloved was lying on a rock sun bathing. He smiled so big at me, and said "You found me! Well Done!" We were so happy, I stepped off the boat and straight into his arms. Our flesh touching in the embrace felt like every skin cell that touched was making love, our hearts beating together making love, our lips kissing making love, our smiling eyes, smiling faces, warm bodies, our whole being making love in totality of our beingness. I lye on him as the waters came in, and the land we were on became smaller. There was total ease, as the waters moved up around us and took us to the next chakrah. 

I remember also the root, dark and red. Black and red. Lots of grunting, very primal. It was heavy or dense down there. Less to no thought, all body feeling and some emotion feeling, though very simple emotional feeling. It was very clear, connected, grounded. 

I remember the feeling of the other chakrahs though not the images or stories connected. 

I love writing my dreams. The clarity my subconscious is communicating is super helpful and answers many of my waking questions. Well done me!!! yay! 

Heaven's Earth: A Dream to Herald in the Beloved

Lastnight I had a very powerful dream:

We were all at this indoor festival, where plants were also growing from within... from the floor. There were many many families there and room where different workshops, music, general fun was going on.

I was there with my children. Their father 'was coming' at first I was sad he was not there with us. I felt alone, yet by the middle of the dream I started to see the amazing awake community around me. All the families with children who are conscious and happy and thriving, reJoySing.

When I could see this, I turned a corner and Caitlin was there with a massage table. When her eyes fell on me, this warm knowing smile spread across her face. Caitlin motioned for me to come over to her with her head. Both Orion and Lyra were holding my hands. We walked over. Caitlin looked at both of them and motioned with her head and eyes for them to hop up and sit on this cushy/pillowed/sheep skinned box next to the head of the massage table. Then looked at me and patted the table. I looked at my kids, worry went through me, then grief and fear. Almost this space of 'if I allow myself to heal who will look after them?'  I looked at her face, soft, knowing and warm. I took a breath and trusted and got up on the table/couch. Orion and Lyra giggling at my head and playing with things hanging on the wall. Again I felt this wave of 'behave' mixed in with anxiety and fear. I went to move the things out of their hands and Caitlin stopped me. She spoke,

"Avi, you're ready for this, now. Leave them to be children, they are and it's good for them to play. Relax now, let go."

Something in me relaxed, my eyes went to Orion and Lyra playing with each other and watching, joyfully, all the people around, all the colour and celebration. They watched Caitlin, as she began at my feet humming and adjusting the energy lines there for me to better assimilate and walk on heaven's earth. She continued in this way, the more I saw Orion and Lyra were safe and happy the more I let go and received. All the colours played and blurred and came into focus as her beautiful, happy humming told me she was just right there.

The 'me' that needed to feel safe, finally felt fully safe. When she finished part one she asked me to sit up. Excitement filled me, and Orion and Lyra too. I sat up on the couch, easily. Caitlin began to test my 'pain' 'pleasure' thresh hold. I saw that the things that brought me pain before felt good now, and I was amazed. In awe almost. Finally, the last test. She took my hand and and went to put her nail under my finger nail. I pulled my hand away in fear. She looked at me and smiled. “It may hurt a bit, and that's ok. See what happens” I gave her my hand again and she dug her nail under the nail of my left middle finger. It hurt, yet in an instant I was more present in my dream. Alert. Our eyes met in presence. And in an instant my children and I were in a hall way looking at musicians.Caitlin was also there standing beside us. We were all moving to the music.

At the end of the Jam, Elijah Ray walked over to a massage table and smiled and waved me over. Again fear and confusion came up (from nowhere seemingly) I didn't know this person, yet I did. All my man-fears rose in me with every step I took closer. Caitlin stood with Orion and Lyra dancing and having a great time. They were all happy for me to step away. When I reached Elijah, he gave me a hug and laughed. I felt confused and childlike. I sat on the massage table/couch and he sat next to me. We spoke a little, and I couldn't really hear through the ears of the child-emotion I was in, however,the anxiety lessened and I became comfortable with him. I felt safe that I would not hurt him or another woman connected to him, and he would not hurt me. ( this is my conception and gestation story, my response after writing this sentence was to get up to get a tissue,then to go downstairs to get something to drink. Instead I am sitting here with this dis-comfort and continue to write)

When the anxiety lessened enough for me to lye down. Elijah started at my feet then heart drumming and working with musical instruments. Almost musically weaving a stronger connection between my feet and heart. So I may walk from my heart on heaven's earth. Then he continued between my heart and my head/throat/crown. I was spirit and body aware of both, dancing within and aware of expansive massive spirit me, that this body lives in, dancing all around me. When he finished, I was strong and vulnerable. I sat up on the table and we looked into one another's eyes. Tears began drip out of my eyes, and we hugged. So much gratitude welled up and poured out from inside me. I could feel his joy at this birth of spirit-awake-inBody, and felt his tears on my shoulder.. blissful. 

We looked at one another with deep recognition and remembering and Laughed!! The music grew louder and my children and Caitlin were still dancing and we joined them. Amber was there with her boys and so many other families and people and we were all celebrating heaven's earth and our arrival and choice to be here, now.

There was so much joy and support. Caitlin, was smiling so big at me, then she leaned over and said “When you're ready to teach New York City, call me. I'll help set it up.” I smiled so big, and said Thank You. As the dreamed faded and I awoke into my day.

What a Healing Integration Dream!!